Enough

Enough is enough. I am so sick and tired of not having the motivation to lose weight. I'm so sick of seeing everyone around me getting pregnant without really having to try. I'm so so sick of the thought that the only thing stopping me from getting pregnant is losing weight. Then why the HELL can't I be motivated to do it? I feel like I've hit rock bottom so many times... but have I really? What is stopping me from getting the things that I love?

I just want to give up on everything. It's really, really hard to stay positive when you feel so worthless. I'm done disappointing not only myself, but everyone that I love.

Goodbye, November

Back to the grind, huh. I can't believe it's almost December!!!
Thanksgiving was nice. I got to see my family and everything went well. I saw dad's gf, which I can't stand. But I was nice to her and she was nice to me(well, nice for her). She's got one of those voices that are kind of raspy and it just makes me CRINGE. I'm glad to don't really see her very often. She's usually not over when I am visiting Dad. But this is a holiday, so blah blah blah... Friday, Bryan(my husband) and I went to Louisville! It was so nice to get away. We went out to eat at a pub and then went to a duelling piano bar, which was AWESOME. There's one here in Cincinnati, but I've never been. I'd really like to go sometime. Hmm... Maybe I'll try to talk Bryan into doing that sometime! =P

We also went to Elizabethtown, KY! If you know me personally, you'll know that Elizabethtown is my FAVORITE movie(Orlando Bloom, YUM!). Ever since I saw that movie, I've always wanted to visit. Well, we went there and I must say... I was a little disappointed. It wasn't as nice as in the movie. I know they shot the movie in different places, along with Etown, but yeah... It was just another boring old town. It kind of reminded me of the area I grew up in. Bryan and I decided that we wanted to have some local food, so we went to a place that was an old Victorian-style house that was converted into a restaurant that serves home cooked meals. It was pretty good. The meal went great until Bryan got up out of our booth and almost knocked over a fully decorated Christmas tree. HA! I would have been so embarrassed if he hadn't caught it before it tipped over. I couldn't help but laugh. I always laugh at the most inappropriate times!

Bry and I totally wanted to go to Dinosaur World, but it was another hour drive and we were pretty tired and wanted to get home. So off we went, back to Cincinnati! When we got home that night, we went straight to bed and slept for 12 hours straight. Can you say, AMAZING? Well it was.

My Shannypants(one of my BFFs, Shanna) is visiting me this weekend! We are having an Ugly Sweater party. I can't wait to shop for my sweater! I don't have any ugly sweaters because.... well, they're ugly.

Hurry up weekend... get here soon!

In Vagina News... I have PCOS(polycystic ovary syndrome). I was diagnosed a few months ago and it's very hard for me to get pregnant(the hubs and I have been trying for over 2 and a half years now). My doctor put me on some meds that are supposed to help with my high insulin levels and also help me lose weight, but I've barely lost any. I lost about 7lbs within the first 2 weeks, but I haven't lost any since. Well, I keep on losing and gaining the same 3lbs. I've been trying to eat right and exercise, but nothing is really happening. I'm really hoping I can get my weight under control so that I can control my insulin levels and get pregnant. I didn't get my period from April this year until October... The only reason I got my period then was because my doc gave me med to take that is suppose to give it to you. She told me that if I didn't get my period naturally within 2 months, she's going to put me on fertility drugs. Well, I was suppose to get my period last Wednesday and I've had no sign of a period. As much as I want to get pregnant "naturally," I'll do whatever it takes to have a baby. Sooooo.... wish me luck, I guess.

Happy Thanksgiving!

This Thanksgiving, I am thankful for my piles upon piles of money, my luxury cars, my mansion, my man-slaves, my amazing size 2 body, and my beautiful singing voice that could melt the ears off an angel.

Hey, a girl can dream, right?

Happy Thanksgiving!

Pre-Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is tomorrow and what better way to celebrate than getting the hell out of town? Okay, not technically ON Thanksgiving... but the day after. Yep. The hubs and I are leaving town(and fighting all that traffic) on Friday morning and heading to Louisville, KY! It's been pretty stressful for us the past few months and we just want to get away for the weekend. So we will probably just end up getting drunk in our hotel room while watching old reruns of Dog the Bounty Hunter. Such classy folk, are we. But hey, at least we will be away from Cincinnati for a bit! It's nice to have a change of scenery once in a while.

Tonight I will be making cookies and watching Romy and Michele's High School Reunion. BEST. MOVIE. EVERRRRRRR!

Annnnd.... ACTION!!!

Hi, I'm Heather! But you can call me H. Or H-Dawg. Or H-Bomb Diggity. But I'd rather you call me Heather. So. After many failed attempts to have a blog, I'm trying again. I always hate the akward first posts and usually don't go any further than that, so bare with me.

This blog will pretty much be about everything in my life. Things that are going on in general... like my love life, family life and social life(or lack of). And a lot of my attempts, such as arts, crafts, hair do's(and don'ts), makeup and fertility. Yep. You'll know my cycle in no time.

So stay tuned and enjoy reading about how I make an ass of myself on a regular basis. =)

Hearts, Farts & Arts,
Heather